I`d been away for a full week—again—and it feels it`s been so long. As I mentioned in my previous posts, I hadn`t been feeling so well and so took the time the rest. No work. No online activity. Just at home sleeping and enjoying my days.
It`s really been a good week! I had no connection with the `outside world` but enjoyed soooo much! Thank God my fever went away faster than I expected. And although I had terrible tummy aches for the past two days, I feel so blessed because my Dad got up from bed the other night (at midnight!) just to pray for me, and that was just cool! Really had a great time with my family. God made me to rest so I can see the really things that matter after all.
It feels good that I can still spend time with my younger sisters and my Mom. Just like how we used to. My sister Ava and I got a really good time talking about everything. Our Mom often caught us laughing at 2am! And last night, Viola, Mom and I talked about things that made me cry.
And I`m so much loving what I have in life now. Even if people don`t seem to understand. Even if my friends feel quite concerned about me not being so career-driven. I used to be so much concerned about my future and my future alone. But God had taught me that having a good career is worthless if that`s the only thing you pursue and you`re not really living your life. I cannot live the same way I used to—setting huge goals for myself and focusing my eyes on it alone while missing my fellowship with the Lord and with my family and friends. I don`t want to live like how the rest of the world does. I don`t want to live in an endless pursuit for position, money and fame. I`ve been there and I don`t want it anymore. What I want is to enjoy my walk with the Lord first of all, my family second, my ministry and then my career. I just want to live a quiet and simple life. I want to be happy from deep within and not set my happiness on what I can achieve in the world.
At the end of the day, I wouldn`t be regretful about anything. And everything would have meaning. I haven`t wasted my life at all.